Hypochondriasis

Damn , worries too much again.. Chill dude ,chill.

Just finish test today

How i wish she notice this blog and reads it. But i aint telling her , she just gotta find out herself.

The plan to see her on sunday failed as no one would offer help , i could still go. But i cant pass the door when i reach there. So sad to say , i gotta cancel it.damn

If i ask her lets go for prom , whats her answer might be? I can almost guess it based on statistic and know it would devastated me with that answer.Or should i just ask like a man with balls.

Surprise , its get more and more predictable nowadays. She wont give me a hint. I could just go and find her ,yes..maybe next next week,i would try dat.

Energy levels ,how come when the energy level is lowest when with me.or is it just reasons..I just hope she wont reasons with me?

Is it really hard when a man need you like you girls always want? Is it too much?

I know i cant confront her on this for it might making her more fan so here i am , typing to a unknown reader.

I always wanted to see her , and sort of had to ask her permission. Out of 10 times , i can say its 9 times a no.Maybe i ask too much, maybe i should be the normal guys, busy about their own things.I always expect a normal relationships. Where the girl love him ,the guy cherish her.

Den ,the phrase ,other guy will find her if you ignore her came to me..Is it true? My brain tells me this is good in the long run, see her colours now ,you wont regret later.

My heart tell me, keep trying no matter what , you dont want regret seeing her loving other guy the way you always wanted.I mean damn , is timing really that important ?

Oversensitive?

Do you need to watch out every guy and tell tale signs that might ,at least you think would grab her away from you?

Every comments ,likes from former fans and friends?

Isit even necessary ? Even this has a good intentions , its bit over.

Better start reduce it or it would drive her away.

Hmm hmm

Have some faith in her , if she break it, you would not want her for a lifetime.I told myself once and somehow i drop it. =)

'' Life can be really amazing, if you are not a negative ball of shit'' Quote from fb.

Too busy?

When i ask ,its always bout studies which is true i know. But if why wont she said the same things to her friends? Hey ,i want study

I dont understand this part and worse of all ,i cant confront her with this.Its like stopping her social life and pushing her futher

And i dont know where to starts mine and make her felt like i do now.hmm

I know she going to movies next wednesday and now preparing for their grand dinner next sun.

So maybe she is free? Although i know she told me 5 weeks sem is gonna be very busy.

Its is like

hey i am busy studying and etc..ok i understand and now letting you study.

But in she commented in fb.

^^ lets discuss the movie when there.

u see my points?

So this doesnt sums up right. I dont know probably shouldnt care at all.

Envy!

Should i?

Peoples do changes...it depends how our changes on par with them.

So my decision to do alot things is right. But certain things might remains. Damn rosacea,..damn u

Hearing a prom night for a 1st time and perform , envy yes..should i say no,dont go..no, A BIG NO!

Alot things to do

RM3 k for proteins

RM3 k maybe more for rosacea

RM20k for me to buy motor

and money money money

Then there is a lifestyle changes...no alcohol,soft drinks, lots of fried food,spicy , and to detoxicfied my body.Wakes early to exercise ,and starts to improve bits by bits

Work while studying

Stay confidences

Make more money

Achieve dean status

Less stress and thinking

Lots of things i wanna start doing this year 2012.

Hopefully it turns out well.

Give me strength and health to do it.=)

4 years? maybe less later

post in front of you like that.=D

Then ride off like this

Retaining my Ninja 250r ,hmm hmm

Monday midnight

Today i browse through the Net on my dream Kawasaki Ninja 250r.

Rm25000 seem achievable.

Then something caught my eyes , Kawasaki Ninja 150.Not as nice as Ninja 250r but Rm10000 price tag.Even more achievable within a short period of time.

Lower your demands to able to buy and ride superbike ? Almost fell for it.=.=

Nah , i wanna keep the standard.Rm25000 within 4 years.

Work hard ><.

Den plus extra rm10000 for other uses.Achievable? Cannnnn =D

Worry

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Today she told me that some bangla asked how many people stay in the area.And recently my friends got robbed in that area too.

I was kinda worry , thinking someone could take my happiness away from me without giving me a chance to defend it.

The feeling of helplessness is felt suddenly.

Anyway, i just hope and pray nothing would happen.

Pai Pai \(o_o)/

Western or Eastern style?

How open and close you wanna be in a relationships

Do you stop her or care less if she wears sexy in front of her friends

If my girlfriend, i want her to wear comfortably yet i also want she wear special clothes with me,it felt like privilages her normal friends or best friends doesnt have.

So if someone post her wall , how do you react to that. Careless ? It seem not care?

Or you ask her? Mistrust or being care?

Or isit normal if her best frens get bit more attentions towards her.How do you dealt with it ,confront or they are just best friend attitude?

So is the world of informations.

HAHA, to approach or to just let it be.

21 years later

Sunday

FB..places where other peoples life is potrayed right in front of you.

Now you dont have to listen to gossips to know who is the new it girl or guy

It gives you free publicity.Suddenly we are all celebrity.

And

It shows you what your love interest is doing

It shows you whats your buddies doing now

It shows you whats your rival doing

Then ,just like celebrity we ought to compare popularity and fame

And just like celebrity gossips, we thought we know what they are doing by their wall posts

Or some find attentions ,some find love ,some find gossips,some post wise words ,some post their events,some scold the world for their flaws ,some whine

Its not bad , if you like that

But i want personal old time interactions, lacking that..i want things i want ,lacking money , i want real lifes instead paper what if list , too much fb.haha

Yeap, there are issue i want settle once and for all

This is not rocky balboa post , or insprirational post

This is just expressing my current thoughts

I got rm505 currently, but it aint staying same.this post is about that.=)